One thing I want to be better at in 2010 is being a great parent. I feel I suck at parenting at the moment. Parenting, I’m gathering, is a lot like a marriage relationship. It doesn’t matter how many books someone reads about marriage or parenting, it will always take practice, patience, and determination. I love both. Being married and a parent that is.

As a dad, I am great at the fun stuff. The sharing gummie worms at the movies. The tickling and laughing. The fixing ouchies. The making hot dogs. The saying “yes” to getting ice cream. But the parenting part, I suck at. My daughter is 2.5 and is starting to test what I thought I knew about being a father. Yes, my daughter has me wrapped around her finger. And in a way, I’m proud of that. I never, ever, wanted to have daughter (God, I can’t imagine the torment I will put her through when she is at “that” age.). But now, I would love every baby we make to be a girl. I know, I know, she is just fitting the part of the terrible twos or threes but I guess in this era, we label her as “sassy”. Sassy isn’t a good thing. It’s cute most of the time but it’s not a good thing. Then she is sweet. Like unbelievably sweet. Caring for our ouchies. Running to get an ice pack for momma at a moments notice. She is amazing. I swear to Dr. Dre, she can freestyle to the tune of Twinkle Twinkle, Old McDonald, and Baa Baa Black Sheep. But, there is always a but. I see her, what I honestly have to label, sin. I DON’T want to do this. But when I acknowledge that what I label as sassiness, is actually a sin, then I believe I am on the right track. Sin is ugly but it must always be approached honestly. I’m amazed at how beautiful and intimate the moment is when my daughter understands she has done wrong.

Yup, it’s true! I now believe. Kids do as their parents do.